This week…
Is severely going to test my limits. My grandma passed away on Saturday. I have all of my finals pretty much this week. Tonight I have a human physiology test. Tomorrow I have to take my Hist final at 3:30- and then have to run to the funeral home for the viewing. Wednesday I have the memorial service. Thursday I have two finals. I think. Plus I have to bake Pumpkin muffins and right a healthy recipe breakdown tonight, for tomorrow, after my test.
Time to compartmentalize the shit out of my emotions.
That’s totally healthy, right?
Pet Peeve….
So the other day I was playing a game with some friends. My partner said some snarky comment and I responded by flipping him off. Per usual. Anyway, this holier than thou Freshman, convienently Nick-named Jesus, decided to comment on my behavior. “That’s not very lady like….”, OH REALLY? Let me break this down for you. Fuck you, and fuck that outdated Misogynist bullshit. What does “being a lady” even fucking mean? You want me to represent the “Virgin Mary” arch type thrust at girls from day one? Bull. That is impossible. Shut up and go back to the Medieval ages. I don’t need you to “adjust” my behavior. I am a person. Regardless of my gender. Last time I checked flipping someone off was a universal thing…and no reserved for the “stronger” sex. Shut the fuck up. Thanks.
It bugs me. Clearly. Like….oh. I’m sorry. I don’t hide behind pretenses. If I want to tell you to fuck off…I’mma tell you to fuck off. Don’t patronize or judge my behavior based off an ideal that was formulated to CONTROL a person’s actions/thoughts/FEELINGS.
K. Thanks. Bye.
Eh.
So I feel lame. And consequently my music has changed according to my mood. I’mma drop some Chris Cornell lyrics…hahahaha.
“Taking my time to untangle the wires
And stare into my sanity
Dropping the hammer and pulling the trigger
I know now the bullet is me….”
